Head Trash


Head Trash

Call it negative self talk, head trash, lies, doubt, or fear.  We all deal with it on some level on a daily basis.  If often leaves us paralyzed or stagnant with where we are.  I wanted to be a trainer back in 2006, but I thought I would never be able to get certified or make a living doing so.  It wasn’t until 2011 that I pursued training as a living.  God had different plans for me those 5 years before that transformed my worldview and chilled me out quite a bit.  I trained for a year at a sports club and I was once asked what my dream job would be.  My answer was, “To own my own gym, but that will never happen.”  A year later my wife and I co-owned 2.  Fast forward to 2016 we were selling those and opening another for a fresh start.  Fear and self doubt kept me from pursuing fitness as a profession.  In reality, it just took some studying to pass a test to get my foot in the door.  I already had 15 years experience lifting weights, writing programming for myself, and reading hundreds of articles, magazines, books, and blogs.  Building a personal training business at a club took time and a lot of asking, ” Are you interested in training, my name is Bryan ect.”  My boss wouldn’t give me people, he made me go out and get it.   I remember him telling me, “I’m not going to go get the work for you, I could, but I’m not going to.  If I do that you won’t know what to do to get business after I am gone.”  It forced me to get out of my comfort zone.  I hated approaching people and introducing myself, but it worked.  I feared rejection and I got a lot of it.  For every 4-5 people I introduced myself to or asked it they wanted to train 1 would either say yes or approach me later to start.   Fear keeps us from doing a lot of things and all the head trash is really just lies.  The moment we start believing the truth and doing the uncomfortable work is when the growth starts.  If you go against the grain and grind it will pay off.  It might take months or even years.  So, how does this apply to CrossFit  you might say.  This is how.

 

CrossFit is hard, very hard and it’s really uncomfortable.   If you don’t like hard work you won’t like CrossFit.  I often tell people I wan’t to quit a lot of my workouts.  I fight head trash before and after.  I’m known to procrastinate for up to 30 minutes before doing some workouts.  Why?  I’m fighting the inevitable misery I am about to endure.  Why do it then?  The discipline and the outcome is why.  I almost always try to find a way out of a workout in my head while I am doing it or I want to slow down and take a break and 99.9% of the time I don’t.  Physically and mentally enduring the discomfort and getting through it with others is priceless to your mental health.  This discipline has carry over to the rest of your life.  The daily grind of working out when you don’t feel like it has a funny way of making everything else life throws at you easier to endure.  The head trash is confronted, you have no choice.  Your anger, stress, fear, tiredness, self doubt, or whatever you are dealing with in dealt with through the physical stress.  Even if a temporary break from the madness, it’s worth it, and it works when you stick with it. Discipline takes time to form.  A disciple is a disciplined follower.  Followers follow for a prolonged amount of time before they are transformed.